I'm Cara, I'm 17 and I'm from England. I go to college and study A-Levels in Film, English, Media and Sociology, all that jazz.
About me? What can I say, I'm a bundle of contradictions, I find that when describing myself I make very little sense at all. I'm an introvert. I live inside my head and am constantly living out different fantasies, which sometimes translates over to how I act in reality. I am actually very realistic, but I do have a tendency to romanticise things. Fictional worlds seem more real to me than the one I am living in. I get insanely attached to fictional characters to the point where many of them are more important to me than people I know in real life. I'm not sure whether that's odd or not.
I've probably come off incredibly dreamy in that paragraph, but that's not really me at all. I do have my head screwed on and I am by no means stupid. I know a lot more than I let on. I think a lot. I'm very independent. I am fiercely guarded and it does me no good. I can be too controlling when I care about something. I'm very genuine in the way I act towards others, though perhaps not so much in the way I present myself. I'm comfortable with myself in ways but also pretty insecure. I like myself but I don't expect others to, even when there is evidence to the contrary.
I don't judge and am very open-minded. I never, ever take people on face value. I believe that we're all the same when it comes down to it. Perhaps it sounds cliched but in the past 6 months or so I have come to realise that forgiveness is one of the most important things, and I no longer hold on to grudges or become bitter. I try not to take things so personally - we're all only human and controlled by our irrational emotions, after all. I am creative and imaginitive and I love to read and write. Reading and writing is my thing more than anything else, even though I have always harboured secret desires to be a performer, something which I hope I will someday have the courage to pursue, even though I'm probably not good at it.
I love to pretend. I live my life like it is one big movie, one big tv show, and I'm the main character. Which is probably awfully narcississtic but oh well. This bleeds into my fashion sense, as I love to feel like I'm in fancy dress. Sometimes I wear really stupid things and not necessarily because I like them, but because I like feeling like a certain person in them. For example, oh, today, I'm the kind of person that goes out wearing such-and-such! In some ways I'm mature but a lot of the time I just feel like a little girl pretending to be adult, a bit in over my head. And I wonder if everyone else is just pretending too, and if maybe everyone is lost and unsure, but I guess I'll never know. I am very contemplative, always reminiscing about the past.
I'm incredibly self-absorbed, as is probably obvious from this description, and I'm not sure whether that comes from my being a teenager or is just part of my introspective nature. I'm a very quiet person in real life and barely ever talk about myself, even when prompted, so LJ is kind of of an outlet for that. However, I am also very interested in others and I will always read your entries and be there for you. I have met some wonderful people on LJ and I honestly do not know what I would do without them.
My number one fandom is Skins, which has been a big part of my life ever since I was 13. Maybe that sounds sad, but it's accompanied me through my teenage years and has just always...been there. The characters are my friends, the storylines are ones I can relate to. It's had a big effect on me and I am sure my life would not be the same without it.
If you have stuck around for my endless rambling, you might be interested in some of my favourites. Just so you know if we have some things in common:
TV Shows: Skins, That 70's Show, The OC, Misfits, Gossip Girl, The Inbetweeners, The X Factor, Being Human, 90210, The Mighty Boosh, The IT Crowd, Big Brother, Glee, Friends.
Books: The Outcast - Sadie Jones, Little Women - Louisa M. Alcott, Lucas - Kevin Brooks, Memoirs Of A Geisha - Arthur Golding, The Story Of My Face - Kathy Page, Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte, Just Listen - Sarah Dessen, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close - Jonathan Safran Foer, Harry Potter of course, etc.
Films: The Boat That Rocked, Lost In Translation, Adventureland, Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, Breakfast At Tiffany's, an abundance of trashy chick flicks, Vicky Cristina Barcelona etc.
Music: Mumford and Sons, Vampire Weekend, The Smiths, The Cure, Marina and the Diamonds, Bright Eyes, Bon Iver, The Beatles, John Lennon, The Virgins, pretty much everything ever used on the Skins soundtrack (Skins is music education ftw!) etc.
This was meant to be a short post but that didn't turn out well, apparently. I mostly post about my life, myself and my general thoughts on the world and the people around me, although I also sometimes post fandom-related things. My LJ friends are all very important to me and I love chatting to them on a regular basis, and am always there for them if they need me. If you share any of my interests, or anything in common with me (or not!), and don't mind my incessant rambling, then please add me!