adeleyna (adeleyna) wrote in add_me,
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Looking for more friends

I've been going through a really bad depression lately and I could really use some more support, plus I love reading about other people, too. LJ has gone a bit dead, but I'm hoping that I'll find some more friends on here, as I've had okay luck. Some bad luck, obviously, but not too bad.

I'm 34, I'm from Canada (Alberta) and I do love my country. I usually write about how I'm feeling which isn't too great lately. I've had depression and anxiety most of my life and I've been on medication since I was 20. In March I changed my medication again as my old medication wasn't working for my anxiety (but as I've recently found out WAS working for my depression). Now the new medication is not at all working for the depression. I haven't been this depressed since I started medication. It's been very tough. I just lost my best friend of 14 years because he's bitter and angry about his divorce, towards women, and, well, sadly that includes me. Which is really hurtful because 5 years ago when I went through a bad breakup, I was bitter and angry and hated men, but he was the exception to the rule. And, well, he did something awful to me this past weekend....

I don't have a job  because of my depression and anxiety, I've lost almost ALL of my friends, I'm 34 and live at home and hate myself for it every day of my life, but I'm also in therapy to work on that. I'm hoping to get more help here soon.... Now why would you want to be my LJ friend? I dunno, maybe you care about people and want to be supportive and helpful and compassionate. That would be great. And when I'm not this way I'm a pretty good friend. I guess sometimes I can be a little unpleasant, but I'm working on that, as well as everything else. But there's just so much to do and I'd really like people who'd comment once in awhile. I don't need comments to EVERY post, but I'm really needing more comments now. And I do comment when I'm sure I won't be rude, but supportive and caring instead.

Any way... That's all. I hope you'll comment and want to add me :)
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