March 13th, 2013

Epically long plea for friends, but stick with it!

Hey, my name's Dani, I'm 20 and I live in England. I've had a livejournal account for a few years, but don't think I've ever posted an entry. I'm hoping to make a couple new friends, someone I can go to for advice and support. I'll do my best to return the favour, but I'm afraid I don't have much experience with that- I've always found it difficult to make friends, let alone let them close enough to genuinely know me. Although I think I'd find it a lot easier to do so online.

I like to think I'm pretty open minded, and I try not to be too judgemental of other people, although sometimes people misunderstand my sarcasm for me being a bitch. But I figure that's their loss. I tend to be somewhat pessimistic in regards to myself, but optimistic about pretty much everything else- not exactly the best personality trait in the world. I'm sure I have a few positive qualities too, I just generally have a little trouble identifying them... I've been told I have a dry sense of humour, and I know not to take myself too seriously, so that's something I guess. My mom's told me I have OCD and I'm a perfectionist, but I call it being meticulous. Although, it seriously took me too long to create this little introduction entry. It bugs the hell out of me, but I care too much of what strangers think of me. Anyway, speaking of my mom, I love my family more than anything, but I don't really feel like I can talk to them about anything and everything... That's why I'm here.

Anyway, I think I might have been suffering from some form of depression for longer than I'd care to admit, although I'm not entirely sure whether I'm exaggerating. But the last couple of months, some stuff's gone down, and I've been getting a little more stressed than usual. So I figure, talking to people, making friends can only help.

I have hundreds of semi-interests (slight exaggeration there) in terms of TV, movies, books etc., although I tend to dabble in a lot, and really commit to a few. The shows I've always watched, and always will are- to name a few (it's really too late and I need to be up in 3 1/2 hours): Supernatural, Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Glee (not sure if people consider it lame or sad, but I like music in pretty much any shape and form, and I won't apologize for it). But as I said, I'm pretty open minded, and I'll watch pretty much anything recommended to me- I've already been converted to Sherlock, Firefly and Chuck this year. The same goes for movies, books and music; I don't limit myself to particular genres, I'll generally give anything a go. I also really love animals, mostly prefer them to people. Although owning a pet has had to be postponed until I finish uni and own my own place, or wear my parents down enough. Really though, my dream used to be knocking down all the houses on my estate and building a zoo - Who cares where all the people live, at least I got my animals.

Anyway, I'm sure this post has been a total downer, so here's a smiley face :)
I promise I'm not all doom and gloom, I just sometimes need to have a rant and let out a little steam. And I'm more than happy to listen to other people rant and help cheer them up when I can.

Is this post too long? I feel like it's too long. All this and I've left pretty much no incentive for you to get to know me. If you do check out my profile, beware : I haven't updated anything on it since I created it and can't even remember what's on it. Probably a load of lame fangirly interests from 14 year old me. Much of which, admittedly probably hasn't changed. But I'll try and update it tomorrow.

P.S. Even if you weren't going to add me or comment on this, if you've actually read this and see a spelling or grammar mistake, PLEASE at least point it out- I'm kind of a grammar Nazi with everyone else, so it's only fair I get it returned, right?

P.P.S. Don't let the downer post put you off...I'm not really all that bad.

P.P.P.S I'm not going to apologize for the P.S.'s- I never claimed to be cool. Also, I don't think P.S.'s is the right way of putting it, but I spent too long trying to figure it out and I should really be asleep right now.