March 21st, 2018


Oh herro there.

My name's Amanda and I am a weird one. I'm a 28 year old creative who draws, paints, plays guitar, and has been a singer in a band for 10 years. I'm still in college and have been working my way through years of trauma in my life (hence why I'm a late bloomer). I've posted here a few times but I think I'll refresh since it's been a while. Like any add_me post, this is just scratching the surface, but if we become friends, you'll soon be emersed in the strange world that is filled with cosmictrashhhhh.

[[General Likes]]


  • My 3DS

  • Playing Overwatch! (and gaming in general)

  • TEA (loose leaf, imported, any kind! Just gimme all the tea!)

  • Coffee (lots of it)

  • Japanese cuisine

  • Naps

  • Yoga and cardio

  • Anime

  • Alcohol (most notably good beer and wine)

  • Thriller books

  • Criminal pathology

  • Horror films

  • Pen-paling

  • Insence

  • Candles

  • Grunge/soft-grunge apparel

  • Punk/goth apparel

  • Hair dye (It's rare for me to be seen without an unnatural color, however, I DO have a natural-ish color now)

  • Piercings (my favorite is my septum)

  • Tattoos (only 4 so far, but counting!)

  • Knitting

  • Sketching

  • Getting stuck in YouTube black holes

  • Imgur

  • Reddit

  • The dankest memes

  • Writing

  • Nicotine (I vape...yeah, I know. Make fun of me. It's okay.)

  • Collecting Japanese stationery

  • Psychology

  • Mental health

  • Meditation


  • Radiohead

  • AIR

  • Aimme Mann

  • Deadmau5

  • Wax Tailor

  • Nekromantix

  • Skinny Puppy

  • Garbage

  • Nirvana

  • Grimes

  • Tokyo Machine

  • The Mills Brothers

  • Magic Sam

  • Hole

  • The Clash

  • The Buzzcocks

  • Camper van Beethoven

  • Butthole Surfers

  • The Dandy Warhols

  • The Datsuns

  • Die Antwoord

  • Echo & The Bunnymen

  • Elastica

  • Elliott Smith

  • The Flamming Lips

  • The Hives

  • Jeff Buckley

  • Velvet Underground

  • Kasabian

  • Lodger

  • Meat Puppets

  • Mogwai

  • Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

  • The Offspring

  • The Pixies

  • Rancid

  • RJD2

  • Sebadoh

  • Smashing Pumpkins

  • Mazzy Star

  • T-Rex

  • Taj Mahal

  • Beck

  • Teddybears

  • Tycho

  • Veruca Salt

  • Zero 7

  • (and too many more of various genres)


  • Potatoes and cheese

  • My insomnia

  • Closed-minded people

  • Passive-aggressiveness

  • Pettiness

  • "Snowflakes"

  • Socks

  • Denim

  • People who are condescending

  • The far-right

  • People who refuse to help themselves yet constantly complain about their problems and look for sympathy (huge pet peeve)

  • Junk food

  • Cleaning

  • Sometimes showering

  • Actual pants

  • People are offended by everything (another huge pet peeve)

  • And obviously ignorance and biggotry and all that bullshit

[[Some General Facts About Me, my Journal and I]]

I write mostly about my mental health and the struggle I have with it, but also daily thoughts. Obvious daily happenings. My journal is quite raw and can be filled with profanity and general mind fucks. I like to share music and things I find beautiful. I am very active and post almost every day and I love to read my friends' journals and comment regularly on theirs. For me, it's a two-way street. If you're not active or don't actively comment, sorry...not gonna be a good fit. I like a close-knit community. My journal is definitely not going to be the easiest to read at times but I like to throw in humor and lots of pictures and am a generally positive person. Just my general journey through my mind, my strange fucked up life, and my strange days. I do have PTSD, depression, anxiety, and have suffered from self-injury, continue to suffer from anorexia, and am a multiple suicide attempt survivor. But I'm still here!

Here's my ugly mug.

I LOVE ALL KINDS OF PEOPLE! If you think we'd get along, add me and I'll add you back :D